Kayaknya sudah ngga perlu penjelasan atau prolog lagi kalau saya itu memang suka menulis, padahal isi tulisan saya juga kebanyakan ngga jelas dan ngga penting-penting amat. Walaupun begitu, saya masih belum berhenti menulis.
I tend to push people away. Perhaps because my life is an absolute shitshow and I'm just as fucked up, I don't want to drag people into it. I thought the far away they are the better. They have a good life, why would I want them to caught up in mine?
2020 has been hard for everyone since the very first day. So many things happened, most of them brought nothing but bad news. It is like living one hardship after another. Scratch that, this is not even living anymore, we are surviving. We are constantly trying to found a way to keep breathing amidst all the obstacles we have to face each day.
Mungkin satu-satunya cara untuk bebas hanya mati. Tapi setelahnya pun tidak semerta-merta merdeka, harus melewati Pengadilan Sang Maha Tinggi.
Jadi mungkin bebas itu hanya sebatas teori. Tidak lebih dari sekadar sisa-sisa mimpi di penghujung pagi. Kilasan dari asa yang dulu pernah membara namun sudah hangus dimakan sepi.
Yang kerap digunakan sebagai mantra oleh mereka-mereka untuk terus berusaha berdiri, walau punggung sudah bungkuk tak tegap lagi.
