Some things are easier to write than said, some even meaningless unless written. That's why writing has always been my coping mechanism. I wrote about almost everything as far as I can remember. I don't think I can make it this far without writing. It helps me so much.
To think about the future in the times like this, when everything seems so bleak, really doesn't give out any optimism. The pandemic is still going strong across the globe, and it seems there is no slowing it down anytime soon.
I know about love just as much as the next person because it is an intricate feeling we humans ever discovered. But throughout every heartbreak and every butterfly, below are my interpretation about loving someone for Day 28.
Please be advised that it may not be the same as how others interpret it.
in·spire/inˈspī(ə)r/fill (someone) with the urge or ability to do or feel something, especially to do something creative.
And for Day 27, I have to tell a story about someone who inspires me.
Brace yourselves, because... I don't have a certain someone who inspires me.
Katanya masa-masa di sekolah dulu adalah masa-masa paling indah. Penuh tawa, sibuk mencari jati diri, jatuh dan putus cinta berkali-kali. Katanya.
Kalo saya sih biasa aja, soalnya ngga yang gimana-gimana juga masa sekolah saya, malah cenderung membosankan karena ya saya juga bukan murid yang gimana-gimana hahahaha.
Sebenarnya agak malu sih untuk tema tulisa di hari kedua puluh lima ini, soalnya gue diharuskan untuk menjelaskan tentang "Something inspired of the 11th image on your phone", yang mana gue akan ngasih lihat isi galeri handphone gue.
Bukan karena isinya ada yang aneh-aneh, tapi karena isinya berantakan banget. Hahahaha. Tapi berhubung temanya seperti itu, dan tidak ada tawar-menawar, jadi yasudah.
Cuy, apa kabar lo nyong? Masih hidup kan?
Saking ngga pernah ngobrol lagi, gue sudah ngga tahu kabar lo di sana gimana, sehatkah? Atau lagi mumetkah?
Biasanya gue menceritakan tentang hari-hari gue ke pacar via Facetime, tapi khusus untuk hari ini gue akan ceritakan di sini sebagai setoran tulisan di hari ke-21 "Write About Today".
Ngga ada yang spesial di hari ini, sama aja kayak hari-hari sebelumnya.
"Ada apa dengan cinta?Tapi aku pasti akan kembali dalam satu purnamaUntuk mempertanyakan kembali cintanya.Bukan untuknya, bukan untuk siapatapi untukkuKarena aku ingin kamu, itu saja."
Mungkin puisi di atas sudah tidak asing di telinga, siapa yang ngga kenal dengan sosok Rangga di film paling hits era 2000-an, Ada Apa Dengan Cinta, diperankan oleh calon suami gue Nicholas Saputra. Ngga usah didebat untuk statement gue yang paling akhir. Please.
Dan untuk hari kedua puluh ini celebrity crush yang akan gue ceritakan adalah Nicholas Saputra.
They said first love never dies. I beg to differ. All the love I felt for this person vanished as soon as I entered high school. There was no leftover feeling whatsoever.
For day 19, I will tell you a brief story about my first love.
fact/fakt/
a thing that is known or proved to be true.
The human heart is such a strange thing. How one can fit all their emotions into a tiny beating vessel next to the lungs. Love and hatred can exist side by side. It will take a long time, if not forever, to really understand the way it works.
Katanya rindu itu berat, ngga akan ada yang sanggup. Untuk pernyataan itu, aku setuju. Merindu sungguh lah suatu hal yang membuat nalar jadi kalang-kabut. Segelas penuh sirup mangga bisa berubah rasa menjadi tawar. Malam cerah bertabur bintang diromantisasi habis-habisan. Candunya mampu mengobrak-abrik tatanan hati yang sudah setengah mati dijaga baik-baik. Ruang kosong jadi terlalu bising. Meratap diam-diam ingin beradu mata dengan yang sudah beda dunia.
Yang dirindukan namanya sedang dibawa terbang oleh malaikat ke surga.
Up until today, 2020 hasn't brought us any good news. To sums it up, 2020 is nothing but disaster and misery. To think that 2020 will be over in a month, it feels like the year went to waste. It's entirely normal for people wanting to run away from all this chaos as soon as possible.
"If you could run away, where would you go?" was the question I have to answer for Day 15.
Gue diminta untuk menceritakan tentang style gue di hari keempat belas ini. Style? Style apa nih? Like, fashion kind of style? Atau style menulis? Style apaaa? Harry Styles? Ea garing. Mari kita asumsikan maksud dari style ini adalah fashion style, biar cepat.
Sebetulnya, gue ngga ada style khusus yang harus selalu gue ikuti. Selama menurut gue itu cocok, dan terlihat bagus di gue ya gue pakai. Gue tipe yang mengutamakan kenyamanan. But, beauty is pain, no pain no gain.
As a self-proclaim booknerd, which you can ask my friends to testify, when I saw the theme for Day 13 was about favorite book, I thought to myself, "this should be easy." and as per usual, I was dead wrong. This is not easy at all, not even the slightest. I can't choose which of those books are my favorites. There are too many of them!
Gaaaahhh!
"and I hope you’re not lactose-intolerant 'cause the second half of that word is…dary! Legendary!”
For every time I spent on Netflix or any other streaming service, seventy-five percent of it was for watching tv series. There are lots of excellent tv series throughout streaming services out there, ranging from comedies, horror, K-dramas, sci-fi, etc.
Bang, gue ulang tahun lho kemarin, masih ingat kan? Udah 27 tahun gue sekarang, gila ya udah tua banget gue. Kadang gue sendiri pun masih ngga percaya kalau gue udah setua ini. Lo juga ngga pernah absen ngucapin selamat ulang tahun ke gue.
Rasanya baru kemarin gue bertambah umur, sekarang sudah makin banyak angkanya. Umurnya makin banyak, tapi rasanya masih berbanding terbalik dengan achievement. Gue masih jauh tertinggal dengan teman-teman kebanyakan. Kalau kalimat penghiburnya sih, "Tiap orang kan timelinenya beda-beda."
Hari kesembilan gue diharuskan untuk menulis tentang kebahagiaan. Ugh. Agak-agak keju nih temanya. Jangan harap gue akan menulis yang menye-menye, sedang tidak ada mood atau energi untuk itu. Imma keep it real for this one.
Bahagia menurut gue adalah transferan uang masuk ratusan juta dollar ke rekening gue.
Ya ampun, masih hari kedelapan huaaaa. Kirain sudah mau selesai, ternyata masih jauh huhuhu. Yaudah sabar ya, tulisannya pasti dicicil kok, walaupun kayaknya baru bisa selesai challengenya di akhir tahun. Tapi gapapa, yang penting ditulis.
Hari kedelapan ini gue harus menulis tentang "The Power of Music".
I can't spend one day without watching a movie or a tv series. It's a habit, I guess. It's one of the things I prefer to do on weekends, and also one of my ideal date (don't forget the popcorn).
With that being said, here are a few of my favorite movies for Day 7.
"Muda, single, good salary. Your life doesn't seem so bad." - Ari.
I would like to start the post for Day 6 (Happy and Single) with the above sentence. It was said by my dear friend when I was still in the Philippines, circa 2017.
Akhirnya sampai juga di hari kelima, tapi masih jauh dari hari ketiga puluh. Jauh banget. Yaudah ngga apa-apa, kan one step at a time. Pelan-pelan yang penting nanti selesai, ya kan?
Di hari kelima ini saya harus menulis tentang orang tua.
Orang tua saya hanya dua orang manusia dari kalangan biasa. Bukan orang terkenal yang banyak dibincangkan sana-sini, walaupun begitu mereka tetap orang yang saya banggakan, terlepas dari ketidaksempurnaan mereka sebagai manusia.
Well, I hope this writing challenge will not be dragging out for too long. With work and all, it is quite tricky to find quiet time to start the writing. So, please bear with me. I promise myself I will finish what I already started.
Now on day 4, I have to write about the places I want to visit.
When thinking about a memory, what was the first thing that popped up in your mind? That fun holiday you took with your friends? A memorable weekend getaway with your significant other? The old house you grew up in? Your graduation day? Well, the list goes on.
After previous enthusiasm to write for Day 1, although I'm never good at describing myself, I can personally call it a successful attempt on this challenge. Even to my surprise, I did the whole thing and finished the writing flawlessly.
Now, moving on to Day 2, we got:
"Things that make you happy."
Kayaknya sudah ngga perlu penjelasan atau prolog lagi kalau saya itu memang suka menulis, padahal isi tulisan saya juga kebanyakan ngga jelas dan ngga penting-penting amat. Walaupun begitu, saya masih belum berhenti menulis.
I tend to push people away. Perhaps because my life is an absolute shitshow and I'm just as fucked up, I don't want to drag people into it. I thought the far away they are the better. They have a good life, why would I want them to caught up in mine?
2020 has been hard for everyone since the very first day. So many things happened, most of them brought nothing but bad news. It is like living one hardship after another. Scratch that, this is not even living anymore, we are surviving. We are constantly trying to found a way to keep breathing amidst all the obstacles we have to face each day.
Mungkin satu-satunya cara untuk bebas hanya mati. Tapi setelahnya pun tidak semerta-merta merdeka, harus melewati Pengadilan Sang Maha Tinggi.
Jadi mungkin bebas itu hanya sebatas teori. Tidak lebih dari sekadar sisa-sisa mimpi di penghujung pagi. Kilasan dari asa yang dulu pernah membara namun sudah hangus dimakan sepi.
Yang kerap digunakan sebagai mantra oleh mereka-mereka untuk terus berusaha berdiri, walau punggung sudah bungkuk tak tegap lagi.
