Flickered

Those are the same hands
that threw the door open,
led me into the greener parts of your heart.

But lately, the door won’t open.

First Timers

Our lives are a series of first times.

We encounter new things every day. I suppose that's what makes life difficult: we're expected to know everything when, in truth, most of the time, we don't know what we're doing or where we're supposed to go.

And perhaps that's what we do to our parents, too.

Aku juga ingin dirayakan

Aku juga ingin dirayakan

Semua halnya
Setiap sentinya

Meriah dengan kembang api
Pakai bunga warna-warni

Aku juga ingin dirayakan
Bukan sekadar kata hampa makna
Atau senyum yang terpaksa

Apakah berlebihan
Jika aku juga ingin dirayakan?

Stagnation

Lately, I’ve had a strange feeling, like I’m being quietly sidelined in a place where I thought I would grow.

It didn’t show up all at once. At first, it was just a passing thought, something easy to brush off as overthinking. But when a feeling lingers long enough, it starts asking to be acknowledged.

Before the Year Ends

Whew… what a year, huh?

I think most of us would agree that 2025 was not our year. It felt like every time we took a step forward, we ended up facing detours rather than finding open doors. Dead ends.

We all had it. We’ve all been through it.

And we carried it quietly and painfully.

The weight of modern days

Does life always have to be this complicated? Didn’t we once live a much simpler life?

Everything feels just so intricate these days. 

Hollow

Have you ever felt like you're supposed to go somewhere, but you don't know where "that place" is? You just know you have to walk there. Wherever "there" is.

That's how I've felt for the past few years.

I'm angry, and you should too

Part 1

Hari-hari ada aja kelakuan bodoh pemerintah yang bikin mulut gue pengen ngehujat.

Nggak cuma kelakuan, omongan pemerintah makin hari makin ngawur. Jadi kayak orang asbun yang dikasih jabatan. Dan ternyata benar kan, jabatan-jabatan itu ternyata juga “dikasih” tanpa melihat kredibilitasnya si orang-orang yang dikasih ini. 

The Final Surrender

I suppose this is the final act, where truth reaches its brutal climax: this game is no longer fair. They broke every rule in the book, fed it to the fire, and danced around the flames, unscathed and shameless.

There's no point in trying to outmaneuver a game that has already been rigged. It's like trying to put spilled toothpaste back in the tube. Useless and humiliating.

Games you can't win

There are some games you were not meant to win.

You give your all, but still, the finish line keeps moving farther. It's always dead end after dead end. It's not fun anymore — just a grueling, rough sea you're forced to swim through, chasing a trophy that keeps drifting further away.