Pitch Black

It's all pitch black, no lights in sight, even air seems stuck in here. As far as my eyes can see, I'm surrounded by darkness. I try to walk, although I don't know what lies in front of me. There's no sound, everything screams silence. I almost can hear my own heartbeat. And I stumbled upon something on the ground, fall with my face first to touch the coldness of the dirt.

"Jangan bikin bahan becandaan tentang gimana seseorang cari uang buat hidupin keluarganya. Bertahan hidup ngga sebercanda itu."

- Becandanya ngga lucu mz mb.

Stuck again

And it happens again, the curious switch inside my brain has turn back on again. I am now, not by choice, once again go straight back into the pool of question marks waiting to be answered.

When You Realize You Are Single AF

Couple nights ago I had a phone call with none other than Luna herself. She was talking about her day at the office and how much of a jerk her boss is. We were supposed to had a group call along with Dini, but she was still on her way home and her surroundings were just so loud I couldn’t heard anything Luna was saying. So Dini had to hung up, and asked Luna to just sent her a voice note about the story instead.

"Home"

Okay so I'll give you a heads up first about what I might be telling in this post: it's about love. Ugh. Yeah I know, I also have the urge to puke but it is what it is. So prepare a plastic bag just in case later you puke or something.

Okay. I start now.

"Yang jauh itu ada 3; kemarin, kamu, sama gajian."

- #namanyajugahidup

Left Behind

This is what I really hate about moving away this far, I'm missing out on basically everything. Even with my friends. I don't get the immediate update about what's going on in their life. Well, sure there's social media and chat messenger, but what I mean is like talking in person as in hanging out. Because when you're hangout with your friends, you guys catching up the story about each other's life right? It just feel different when you're cathing up through group chat. You can't tell their reaction, you can't tell their face expression, you can't tell their tone. Yes indeed the world is now full with inovation, yes we do have video call but hello, internet connection sometimes turning into a pain in the ass. But yeah, that is as much as you can get.

Shit Happens

So today I was trying to tweeted something when I noticed something weird, it said that my twitter account @chrnnisaw has been locked because of unusual activity (I was like, "the hell?!). I tried to retrieved it with any way I could think of, but sadly I couldn't even login to my email address because it's been too long since the last time I logged in. Daym. So I have to kiss those 1066 followers I have gained since 2009 goodbye.

Goodbye :"""""

Daydream #2

Sometimes, I stood by the balcony staring at your tall house scratching the clouds. I saw hundreds lights broke through the windows reaching my eyes. Then I wondered which one of those windows is yours? Could it be the same with the one that I've been gawking at since ten minutes ago wishing that I was right? Or could it even be possible that you also staring at my tall house, wondering which one of these windows is mine?

I need to stop daydreaming.