Big Steps

I feel like... Wait, I'm gonna pause here for a minute. Yes, I've been using a lot of "I" and please bear with me regarding this, because I'm not posting something worth reading lately, I know that and I am sincerely apologize, but I promise that I will. So for now, kindly bear with me. Okay? Okay?

Going back to the first sentence.

I feel like this year is all about taking a big step, like you know, jump into the pool of uncertainity. Well at least for me, it feels like it. Yes, still talking about me. You probably start calling me a self-centered bitch by now.

There are lots of big things happened to me this year. Which most of you who has been patiently reading my so-called-blog already know. Well of course, leaving my country, having my first job in different country, and all that jazz. Come to think of it, it's not all jazz, it's also a ballad. Like a sad, tragic ballad. Hiks. That's life.

But yeah, this year is about taking a huge leap. Such as: making important decisions, being more independent than I was before, got tested by those rocky roads, etc etc.

It doesn't feel like riding a normal rollercoaster, it's whole other level I think. It is scary as hell, because some of the decisions are not changeable, it's permanent. Yep, it's a big deal, because once I take a step on it, there's no turning back. Huaaaahhh!!

I'm curious, which I always have been, about what would I be like by the end of this year, after all of these things happened to me. And lastly, I just hope and also pray that no matter how steep or how nonsense the rollercoaster might get later on the way, I will not lose my tight grip on the safety harness.