When You Realize You Are Single AF

Couple nights ago I had a phone call with none other than Luna herself. She was talking about her day at the office and how much of a jerk her boss is. We were supposed to had a group call along with Dini, but she was still on her way home and her surroundings were just so loud I couldn’t heard anything Luna was saying. So Dini had to hung up, and asked Luna to just sent her a voice note about the story instead.

And after those grunting and swearing over her boss, Luna suddenly stirred her wheels to the right and changed the topic. She told me about the guy she met on her trip and how spark flew between them. Ah… young love. But then it was just a temporary, by the time the boat reached the land, so did the spark. It was just a fling. A fling that left quite a mark on her brain though. Lol.

Then then then, I told her that my friend from high school is getting married by the end of this August and I was a bit sad because she didn’t tell me considering that we used to hangout together back then. I knew the news from Juni. Yeah, I guess I already forgotten huh? Aside from that, I already got many invitations to my friends’ weddings and of course I couldn’t attend any of that. At that moment, both me and Luna were realize that we are single af. Well, also Dini. We three are just a bunch of jombs. But Dini is like the type of person that doesn’t give a damn about it, maybe because she got tons of work to do at her office so she doesn’t have time to think about it. For me and Luna? Hm… let’s say, we’re slightly the opposite, although we also have the same amount of work with Dini.

You know I always said that I’m cool with being single, it doesn’t bother me at all, blah blah blah. Which I still do by the way. But then, after every Sunday scrolling through timeline and it always shown wedding pictures, dinners, or even selfies, it kinda sink in a little bit you know.

I was like, “Nyoh, do you realize that we are single af?” and she just laughed miserably as her answer. Even writing this, it takes a lot of efforts for me not to sound devastated as it sounds. She told me that I should write about this on my blog, and ta daaaa!

practically me and Luna

This is not some pity party where I’m just pitying myself over some shits. Crap. I cursed again. Sorry.

I couldn’t care less about watching movies alone, eat my lunch or dinner alone, strolling around the park alone, buy groceries alone, even shopping my clothes alone. But yeah, at some point it would be nice to have someone to be with, now wouldn’t it? I guess Luna is luckier because at least she got a fling, me? I don’t even have a freaking fling. But yeah. I’m not saying that having a boyfriend or whatever you call it, is my priority, it just started to feel a little bit lonely after this, what, like 3 years of being single. Or maybe it’s because of the hormones. You know like the ones that always messed you up during that time of the month? Yeah, I think it’s all because of the hormones. Damn you hormones.

But thank goodness I have the best mother, awesome friends, so they can push the loneliness away a little bit. I’m still greatful for it. So, yeah, I am single af and it's okay. I guess. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯



PS: please do laugh, because i was writing this while laughing and this is suppose to make you all laugh. Life’s already hard, and I want to lighten it a little bit with laughter. #SmileMore #gerakanduniatersenyum