Left Behind

This is what I really hate about moving away this far, I'm missing out on basically everything. Even with my friends. I don't get the immediate update about what's going on in their life. Well, sure there's social media and chat messenger, but what I mean is like talking in person as in hanging out. Because when you're hangout with your friends, you guys catching up the story about each other's life right? It just feel different when you're cathing up through group chat. You can't tell their reaction, you can't tell their face expression, you can't tell their tone. Yes indeed the world is now full with inovation, yes we do have video call but hello, internet connection sometimes turning into a pain in the ass. But yeah, that is as much as you can get.

Then there's a routine, work schedule, time different and all that making the inovation that was supposed to make it easier, become way harder. Well sure if you really want to talk with someone, no matter the obstacles, you'll find a way right? But that's the case, if you want to.

So eventhough I was the one who leave the country behind, it feels to me that I'm the one who's being left behind. Hurts me a lot actually. It almost like it tells me that they're starting to forget that I do exist just because I live far away. Imagine by the time when I go back home for good, what's left of me then? A glimpse of memories inside their brains? The name that they used to pronounced? Somebody that they used to know? Or what?