Crossroad

The first thing I ran after when I went through a breakup was a distraction, since everything that came after the breakup was only a lingering emptiness.

The room was back to empty, there was no more story to be told, everything must switch back to the way before anything ever happened, and there was just no more. The void it left behind was excruciating. That was when distractions played an important part in becoming my coping mechanism, and when I got sloppy with it.

And apparently, I wasn't the only one who dealt with the same situation, as he did too. Now several months later, we're both wonder what if we had met sooner? What would happen then?

I tried to imagine what it would be like if we had. Sure we would've gotten more time together, and we could spend a lot of time doing things instead of just throwing them all into a bucket list.

But then again, I don't think we would've worked out if we had met sooner.

Last year, I was still trying to get over the breakup, I wasn't ready to be in a new relationship yet, and there were just a lot of things I needed to sort out first before finally ready to open up to someone new. He would just be another rebound, another mistake I made just for the sake of filling in the emptiness.

And him, he was still trying to get back on his feet after the painful breakup he had. I know because I read those letters he wrote. He was desperately looking for distraction as well because of the same emptiness. He was still very much in love with the girl, and he was not ready to let go of the relationship or anything that had to do with it.

We both were not ready for someone new entering our lives, let alone jumping into a new relationship with them.

With that being said, I am glad that we hadn't met sooner because we would have ruined each other if we had. We wouldn't have appreciated each other in the way we do today. It would be a disaster, we'd be miserable, we’d wish we hadn’t done it, and everything would be horrid.

So I suppose we walked into each other’s lives at precisely the right time. It was not too soon, or too late. Another quote from my favorite tv series, I quoted this before but I'm gonna quote it again because it still fits with the context:

"If it's going to happen, it'll happen when it happens." - Ted Mosby.