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One Giant Machine

I see this world as a gigantic machine that keeps whirring, ticking and buzzing all day and all night. And we, people, and other living things (even those aliens who may have settled in some remote facilities in the secret area by the mountain, hey, who knows?) are parts of this big machine.

Hijab is not a limitation

And this one just in! For real. This happened around 8.30pm yesterday, which is just few hours ago. Four hours ago to be exact. This one... This one is... I don't have words to describe it. Really. So here it is.

Top 8 questions I've ever gotten about Islam and My Hijab

Since I'm the only Muslim in the office, for real, I'm literally the only one, plus I'm wearing hijab, so  it makes me the "different kid" from the bunch. The good thing is, everyone knows me. They can just point me easily. So if you're on the penthouse floor and you see a little girl wearing hijab walking around, yep, that's me.

"Karena pada akhirnya yg bisa dilakukan cuma ambil napas panjang, buang pelan-pelan, dan berdoa semoga stok sabar masih banyak."

- ya habis apaan lagi? ujung-ujungnya juga gitu kan

ARI
Anjir kita udah lama ngga jalan da

GUE
Beda jadwal kan kita, atuh mau jalan kumaha. Mentok jg cuma Greenbelt (Mall di Makati), Glorietta 5 (masih Mall di Makati) udah paling jauh hahaha

ARI
Abis kalo ke Trinoma (Mall jauhan dikit, gue lupa nama daerahnya) ntar ada yg tidur lagi di MRT, terus besokannya sakit deh

GUE
AHAHAHAHA kan capek vroh, kan lu tau gua gampang sakit kalo capek dikit wqwq

ARI
Cuma hati lu doang yg tahan banting cok

GUE
Bangkeeeee -_-

Open your window

I have this small window in my bathroom for ventilation. I wanted to close the said window, since I was going to take a shower because I need to go work and I really hate the schedule I got that time plus I was going to be late that day.

I know that people from that new apartment two blocks away can't literally see me, unless they have magnified power in their eyes then most probably they saw me pretending to be a rock star in my bathroom on the fourth floor which would be majorly embarassing. But since the generation of X-men haven't exist yet (have they?), so I will assume that they can't see me. And the window is not open that wide, just a little bit. So I am positive like an ion no one see me inside that bathroom

"They wanted us to do the impossible, but they forgot that we are still human, we are not immune from the impossibility."

- No, I'm not talking about some "nothing is impossible" crap.

Once upon a long and dull night shift

Once upon a long and dull night shift. The sound of slamming keyboard and mouse clicking richocet on this 3x6 meter room. And this is how I broke the silence on that night.

"Andy, why are you single?" I asked my friend while he was sticking his eyes to the monitor and his fingers dancing on the keyboard.

This would probably the most unimportant question I have ever asked him among other unimportant questions. And most importantly, this is the kind of question I should've asked myself, not to other people.

"Jangan bosen sendiri, nanti ga meaning saat menggenap." 

- Nuranna Ayu Septyaningrum

she's more than a titanium

Gue masih ingat dengan jelas waktu ketika gue nganter nyokap ke Bandara Internasional Ninoy Aquino, mengantar beliau pulang ke Tanah Air dan meninggalkan gue yg memutuskan (walaupun dengan banyak keraguan di tengah jalan) untuk memulai karir di sini sebagai batu loncatan. Seakan baru kemarin, tapi nyatanya udah setahun yg lalu.

rindu itu bertumbuh terus tanpa sempat dipuaskan
bagai awan yg terus menghitam menimbun badai di kemudian hari
dan rasa yg tak bisa beranjak kemana-mana