That Phase

A steady relationship doesn't magically build within a day. It takes time, lots of it, such as effort, communication, compromises, and commitment. Funny how we need a huge amount of time to build it, but only a few hours to ruin it.

Anyway.

I guess it's starting to really sink in that we have quite a lot of differences. Something in which I did not think would be this much. This is the phase guys, that time when you are starting to see differences you have with each other. And usually, when the problem starts happening.

I'm gonna be honest, it's a bit hard to adjust since we are still figuring everything in our relationship. Yep, I'm talking about the relationship now, my relationship (cieeeh~), it's happening guys, deal with it. Okay, back to what I was saying, I might have given the doubt a few portions to take over. That's a normal reaction I guess, since we have this basic instinct to be alarmed with the unknown.

Adding to that, I spent years and years investing so much in a destined-to-be-catastrophic-relationship. I'm already used to its rhythm, habits, good and bad, those little corners hiding all the secrets. I guess one of the reasons why I could stay so long in an ill-fated relationship was because I was used to it. It was my comfort zone, even though it was killing me.

And since it's all the way behind me, now I have to start everything from scratch again with another person. Not that I'm not grateful to have this seemingly great moving forward kind of relationship. It's just that there are phases I have to pass all over again. I think we both just have to bear it for now and have faith in each other that this will pass. Because again, a steady relationship doesn't magically build within a day.