An emotional night

Last night after I packed up all my things and stuffs (which is a lot for someone who was just staying there for three years) into boxes, I noticed that this room is now hundred times quieter than it was when Luna left. I could even heard myself thinking. It echoed all over the walls.

Sometimes you want to give up and walk away, and sometimes it's the other way around. Sometimes it's not you who eventually giving up and walk away.

"And you say that it's hard, it's you walk away again. And you say that it's hard, you still walk away in the end."

Terkadang kepengen ini otak sama hati dikeluarin terus ditaruh di atas meja, supaya yg nanya, yg masih penasaran, yg bingung, yg butuh jawaban bisa lihat langsung karena saking alfabet sudah mulai kehilangan kesaktiannya dan bibir pun bisu karenanya.

Seperti itulah.

"Coba deh, sisakan rasa sayang untuk diri sendiri"

- @GADISmagz

Not Much.

"And then one day I realized he knew everything about me. My deepest secrets, my worse pain. Enough to fill a million novels. But I didn’t know enough about him to even write a pamphlet." 

- Meredith, Castle Season 5 "Significant Others"

I was just finished watching Castle, and that line was just startled me.

And then I realized something.

"Kenapa orang itu memilih untuk bersama kita kalo emang cuma untuk ditinggalin ujung-ujungnya?"

- pertanyaan yg sering malang-melintang di benak saya.
 9 Maret 2015 | 5.04 pm

General Inquiries #2

What is real?
How do I know if something is real?

What is life?
What is death?

Waktu Bersih-bersih Sangat Singkat

Hal ini menjadi salah satu hal yang paling awal diakui oleh para pegawai bioskop. Mereka tak punya alokasi waktu yang cukup untuk melakukan pembersihan bioskop secara menyeluruh. Bahkan, jika beberapa film selesai bersamaan, petugas kebersihan bioskop hanya memiliki beberapa menit untuk membersihkan beberapa studio sekaligus.

There are two types of people in my opinion (which nobody asked about it btw):

1. People who reach out to you because they're genuinely want to talk to you;
2. People who reach out to you because they need something from you.

Which one are you?

This was it.

Epilogue

As Peter kissed my forehead and both of my cheeks gently last night, I counted every seconds I had left. My hands were on his back, hugging every inch of him as much as I could, basking in his scent I know so well.

I rested my head on his chest, I could hear a quiet sound of his beating heart. I closed my eyes and found myself drifted away by its rythm. I then took a glance to the clock on the wall that just kept on ticking... and ticking... and ticking.