2017

Dear 2017,

Here I am, 3 hours before midnight, before 2018 born, and I want to say thank you

This has been a wonderful journey and one hell of experience I never thought the kind of person like me would ever had. But it happened anyway. All ups and downs, I will surely cherish them all for they made me the person that I am today. Stronger than I have ever been before.

Because the sun has to set
Even birds in the sky, they fall
Those trees die
The strongest cry

Quiet thoughts

A sudden contemplation grew stronger and stronger in the passenger seat of Uber car as we drove closer towards the bright orange sunset. Try to imagine 60's romance movie, where the car slowly driving towards the sunset as they rolled out the credit. But sadly, the different part from the said 60's romance movie was that I had no one to hold hands with. Except for that Uber driver, but that would sound even more devastating.

Heart Repair

On the way home.

Me: Oooh kuya look, they do shoes repair, bag repair, luggage repair and also key duplication. I wish I found this place sooner.

Ojek: I wish they do brain or heart repair also. 

Me: Yeah I need that heart repair. 

Me and Ojek: HAHAHAHAHAHA

"I’ve got the perfect temperament for a writer; perfectly happy alone in a room, making things up."

- J. K. Rowling

Economical

As a young adult, the adulthood problems starting to coming up to the surface one by one, such as bills, where do I see myself in the next five years, marriage (eventually), managing the not-so-many income that I got every month while keeping myself entertained for the sake of my happiness without having to interfere the said income too much. Headache? Yeah me too. But that's just the problems that you will have to face once you grow older.

The more income you have, the more bills to pay.

Admirer

The bell rang as I walked into the room. It was quite a sunny day, so I stopped by the coffee shop to drink something cold. I often went here, either alone of with friends, beside they have a very fast wifi, the variety of beverages they served are super delicious, as well as their light snacks.

A peaceful moment

Sometimes a peaceful moment comes to you in an unexpected time and at an unexpected place. A peaceful moment when suddenly all your problems, all the drama in your life, all the obstacles you know you have to get through the next day evaporates into the air. It's just you and your surroundings. Everything else disappears.

It happened to me last night.

Minuscule

There were days where everything grew twice bigger, three times taller. These days, I became an ant. How was it like to be an ant? Well, it was like all the furniture became tools made for giants. Trees outside clouding the sky, and suddenly it was endless night.

"Don't stop because you've reached your limit, stop because you know you're close to your limit."

- it's like standing behind the yellow line, keeping you safe from being run over by a moving train. and I am one step away from falling onto the track.