"Mungkin emang harusnya dirayain aja semua kehilangan, tanda tanya, rindu, dan segala macam bentuk jalan buntu."

- Semua aku rayakan.

4 Januari 2020

Belly up

Sejauh rentang dekapmu, sejauh itu pula kudorong segenap hati ini makin dekat ke tepi. Berlomba adu pandang dengan jurang di bawah sana. Ramah genggam tanganmu menggoda dinding angkuhku untuk luruh tak bersisa, tameng terakhirku untuk menahan seutas kalimat yang sudah menggantung di ujung lidah. 

Lalu kau bawa kedua bibir itu untuk bertamu dalam sebuah kecup. Aku mengedip, dan jatuh sebebas-bebasnya.

30 Maret 2021.

Lima puluh ribu.

Kemarin (19 Februari 2022) gue diajak ngopi bareng pacar dan salah satu temannya di daerah Rawamangun. Awal obrolan banyak tentang startup, lengkap dengan istilah-istilah familiarnya: venture capital, seed funding, fintech, angel investor, dll. Untungnya gue masih sering baca-baca berita dan ngga asing dengan istilah-istilah ataupun obrolan mereka, jadi masih bisa ikut ngobrol. Dari startup, sampai obrolan tentang dunia parfum. Minuman juga sudah habis, akhirnya kita pesan minum lagi.

Lalu obrolan kita berlanjut ke topik yang lebih personal, atau istilahnya "curhat".

Keep Walking

We often walked in the uncharted path. Unknowingly wandered into an uncertain future where thousands of outcomes may occur. It’s frightening, and yet, we keep on walking anyway.

Perhaps the thought of stopping altogether is scarier, and we might gradually cease to exist if we stop walking. But then, there are too many intersections. How do we know which one to choose? How do we know which track will not lead us to the bottomless pit of dark abyss?

Thus, we keep marching towards the foreign land with uneasiness clung tightly on our shoulders, hoping we might find the answer ahead. 

G'day Mate!

Well, hello, earthlings! How are we doing today? How's the weather? I hope you all are doing fantastic. 

As I have said in the previous post, I am now married (what????) and currently living in one of the best cities in the world, Sydney, Australia. Not only that, I had leveled up to the golden age of thirty. I feel like so many things have happened all at once, and I haven't been able to share with you, dear readers, all of this story. 

New Chapter

Dear readers, we are now entering a new chapter of my life. A chapter where I hope I can get wiser as I get older, happier, and more content with life. This is definitely going to be a hell of a ride, but I am hoping that I can overcome any obstacles, any bump in the road, any edge of a cliff that I might face later. 

Strangers again

When we ended things with someone whose name was once carved in every inch of our hearts, we realized that our entire routine must be reset because that person will no longer be in it. Who once was in the penthouse of our priority now becomes a stranger, just like when we first met them.

My new skin

I'd be lying if I said that post-fire life is easily managed. No, it's not because today you look fine as usual, but the next day you have all these scars all over your body. My life and my body changed overnight. I had to say goodbye to my old life and entered this excruciating path I must endure. 

2022 Recap

Whew... what a year, isn't it? Does everyone get hammered by 2022? Because I did. 

To put it nicely, 2022 was one of those impossible years that I had. But, to put it blatantly, 2022 was a fucking shitshow full of misery. It was a perfect hurricane of everything going wrong. That's 2022 for me.

However, let's start with the bright side first. Later on, the recap will get more depressing.

"God, please spare me from any misery in 2023, I already endured tons of them in 2022."

- Please. Amen.