Ruang

tanyanya pada ruang
dipijak di bawah telanjangnya kaki
kedua sisinya seakan lapang
merayu diri untuk berlari
lantas menabrak dinding

tak ada yang pergi
namun ada yang hilang

ruang tetap diam
bergeming dalam bungkam
sekalipun gaung menoreh tajam
dan gerimis yang terus menggumam

a year older than yesterday

I was just so caught up in the conversation I was having in whatsapp I didn't realize it's not 31 October anymore, and I'm not 22 anymore. It feels like it was yesterday I turned 22, now I'm 23. The next thing I know, I'm probably already 62 years old. I don't know. Probably.

"I just hope that after those people I have left behind, everything I have to sacrificed, every second I spent, every drop of sweat I've shed, every mile I've walked, it would all be worth it in the end."

- I still have some faith that it would be.

"Aren't we here because we're searching for something?"

- or someone? or someplace?

CARI DUIT ITU SUSAH! (maaf pake capslock)

Setelah tinggal sendiri disini yg mana gue harus membayar semua-muanya sendiri, termasuk: sewa apartemen (yg mahalnya ampun), listrik & air, groceries, wifi, dan tetek bengek lainnya, gue akhirnya ngerasain kalo CARI DUIT ITU SUSAH! Apalagi kalo tagihan yg harus dibayar ada disana-sini.

A Gum.

You're like a gum stuck on my shoes, yet I find it very pleasing knowing that you're there. I won't scrub you off, let my shoes get sticky all over the road. That's a selfish thing to say, I know, considering I was the one who threw you away, yet I'm the one who's gladly stepped on you over and over again just so I know that you're still there.

"I know I'm gullible because a lot of people tell me that and I have no reason not to believe them."

- Jess (New Girl)

literally me, because a lot of people also told me that. yep.

Take Your Time :)

"“Stupid”? Stupid is watching all of your friends make plans for their future an realizing that you have none at all."

- Rachel Berry (Glee).

I've been in that state before, had no clue of what I'm going to do with my life whatsoever. It was pressuring me until the point that I could no longer handle but burst into tears. I was so stressed out back then, seeing all of my friends are achieving their goals one by one, leaving me alone still wondering what should I do with my future.

"There's a rule in falling in love: you need to keep both eyes open, no matter how hard the glows, the gleam, and the sparkles of her join forces to make you shut your eyes."

- the only thing that matters, yet the only thing we always seem to forget.

"Rindu ini mengapa keras kepala sekali sih?"

- kalang kabut aku dibuatnya.