Growing Up #2

Jadi sahabat gue dari SMA hari ini lamaran. Sahabat dari jaman MOS SMA sampe detik ini, udah jadi calon istri orang. Yang tadinya sama-sama pake baju putih abu-abu, contek-contekan waktu ujian, jalan ke mall, nginep di rumahnya, sampe akhirnya lulus dan pake baju bebas di kuliah. Dateng ke sidang masing-masing sampe pindahin tali toga. Bertahun-tahun gue sahabatan sama dia, dan hari ini dia jadi calon istri orang.

Kadang mikir kemana perginya waktu sebegitu lama? Kok cepet bener udah sampe tahap ini?

Rindu ini menyebalkan, sungguh!

Terkadang rindu itu sungguh amat sangat menjengkelkan, karena datang semaunya tanpa ada aba-aba. Bukan perihal bertemu saja lalu serta merta rindu itu akan hilang, karena sekalipun tiap hari bertemu, kala mata masih ingin terpejam dan punggung masih ingin bersandar namun harus menerjang jalan pun masih saja disapa rindu.

Airplane

And I stood there, on a sidewalk in the middle of a busy street where cars, and people passed by in continuation endlessly. Watched how everything kept moving, how the world never sleeps at all. As the world woke up in its constant hours, so did the sky where lights eradiate the landscape. And finally, I saw those lights I know so well.

"Work-life balance, is it real or is it just a long forgotten tale?"

- a question

"Your honesty would've make a difference. What a shame that you didn't even think of just being honest with me and I had to found out this way."

- again, what a shame.

Ikhlas

Dalam ikhlas kubiarkan engkau melangit

Selepas embun pagi, sebelum surya terbit

Sebab pohon tak pernah memenjarakan daun-daunnya

Dan sebab rasa tak bisa dipaksa

13th February 2018

Trust (Issue) #2

It's not easy to gain someone's trust because it's a crucial thing, a go signal to let down any defenses they barricade themselves with. For some, it's like giving permission to see all their vulnerabilities and weaknesses, not just those, but everything of their whole being. That's why it's not something they give away carelessly.

"Opening up to someone new can be incredibly terrifying."

- Chairunnisa

That Phase

A steady relationship doesn't magically build within a day. It takes time, lots of it, such as effort, communication, compromises, and commitment. Funny how we need a huge amount of time to build it, but only a few hours to ruin it.

Anyway.

What if #2

Is it just me or most everyone has that train of "what if" thoughts in their heads? That particular anxiety playing over and over. Because I have them sometimes. But like they always told me, I'm just overthinking stuff like I always do. Worrying over something that doesn't and perhaps won't even happen, ever.