2.28.2021

Sang Pemenang

Matahari sedikit lebih cepat pulang ke peraduannya, mungkin malu karena kamu bersinar terang sekali hari itu. Pepohonan di sekitar berdebar lantaran senyummu bertambah seribu kali lipat manisnya. Itu pohon-pohon, bayangkan menjadi aku. Sungguh Tuhan, pemandangan di depanku adalah mahakaryaMu yang tiada duanya. Berlebihan, tapi tak apa, kalau tentangmu tidak ada cukup yang benar-benar cukup.

2.01.2021

???

What am I doing?
Do I have to figure everything out by now? 
Why can't I be like everybody else with their lives all planned out?
Am I just another fucked up lost cause?
Where do I want to go?
Would it be so terrible to head aimlessly for a while? 
Which way should I take?
What do I want to do with my life?

1.24.2021

Untuk seorang yang berjuang setengah mati supaya tidak lagi menjadi pecandu, ternyata hanya butuh jalan temaram ramai kendaraan dan tanganmu yang tak hentinya kugenggam, untuk kembali menjadi salah satunya. Yang lalu jatuh tergelincir dengan sukarela dari ujung jari-jari tanganmu yang sibuk kukecup semalaman, menyisipkan deklarasi hati pada setiap kesempatannya.

Langit malam itu penuh sesak dengan doa diam-diam supaya selamanya bisa dimulai dari sekarang.

1.13.2021

The Aftermath

The aftermath when two people who had promised to be with each other cannot work it out anymore could be horrid. Even if the parting is inevitable, and you saw that coming, knowing very well what would happen next, still, no one is truly ready for the heartbreak.

It throws you off from the course, your whole world trembling. You have to change everything because everything is not going to be the way it used to anymore. It could shatter you completely.

1.11.2021

And so it is

Wow... ngga nyangka kalau 30 Days Writing Challengenya bisa selesai, walaupun ngga tepat waktu sih, tapi paling ngga sudah selesai. Rasanya gimana? I feel nothing actually. Ngga ada rasa senang, lega, bahagia, excited atau apapun. Entah, mungkin saat itu saya sedang merasa withdrawn juga jadinya saya ngga ada rasa yang gimana-gimana.

12.31.2020

Day 30 - Bleeding ink

Some things are easier to write than said, some even meaningless unless written. That's why writing has always been my coping mechanism. I wrote about almost everything as far as I can remember. I don't think I can make it this far without writing. It helps me so much.

12.30.2020

Day 29 - Goals

To think about the future in the times like this, when everything seems so bleak, really doesn't give out any optimism. The pandemic is still going strong across the globe, and it seems there is no slowing it down anytime soon. 

12.29.2020

Day 28 - Another form of freefall

I know about love just as much as the next person because it is an intricate feeling we humans ever discovered. But throughout every heartbreak and every butterfly, below are my interpretation about loving someone for Day 28.

Please be advised that it may not be the same as how others interpret it.

12.28.2020

Day 27 - Inspiration

in·spire
/inˈspī(ə)r/
fill (someone) with the urge or ability to do or feel something, especially to do something creative.

And for Day 27, I have to tell a story about someone who inspires me.

Brace yourselves, because... I don't have a certain someone who inspires me. 

12.26.2020

Day 26 - Semut merah yang berbaris di dinding

Katanya masa-masa di sekolah dulu adalah masa-masa paling indah. Penuh tawa, sibuk mencari jati diri, jatuh dan putus cinta berkali-kali. Katanya. 

Kalo saya sih biasa aja, soalnya ngga yang gimana-gimana juga masa sekolah saya, malah cenderung membosankan karena ya saya juga bukan murid yang gimana-gimana hahahaha.